How does one say something and nothing simultaneously? I’ve no idea; I’m not a politician. Yet, today it’s necessary. Here goes…
It’s been exactly 31 days. One month. Only. One. Month.
I hardly believe it’s such a diminutive unit! However, a lot can happen in a month. A journey, a challenge, a recovery, whatever it is… I’ve had more events than you’d think any sane universe would serve up so rapidly. God apparently decided I could handle it. I suppose he (not I) knew what he was doing. Events seem to support that supposition.
The horizon on this side of that short divide looks different than that side. Better actually! Things could have gone worse. I am reminded to remain humble and thankful.
My hastily drafted post wasn’t deep; “Shit’s going on. Said shit requires my full attention. I’ll be back when I’m back.” I didn’t specify what or why… because it’s a private matter. (Just shutting the hell up is still legal, moral, and possible… even in a world that has social media… isn’t that awesome?) I didn’t know when (or if) I’d be back. I suspected I’d be fine but that was more a guess than knowledge.
That odd little post was also a turning point in a mess that had been going too long on a scale that started looking exponential. As a general rule I blog (if sporadically) even when damn near dead. I’ve done that for years. Yet, what’s the point? Seriously… I mean it. Every now and then each and every one of us needs to sit down and think “what’s the point?” Do we? Do we indulge that ultra-necessary periodic moment of reflection? Do we avoid it? Why?
Regardless I gave up my mundane routine. I “just let it go”. (And by “it” I mean damn near everything! Most of which isn’t that important anyway.) It’s terrifying yet freeing to take your hands off the wheel. We monkeys cling to routine. When the spirit tells us otherwise we try hard to miss the clues. Was my brief abdication essential? I’ll never know. I think so. “Grinding it out” wasn’t doing me any favors. How many people “grind it out” all the way to a dirt nap? Not everyone has the resources and opportunity to try something different. I’m grateful I did. And remember… it was just a single month!
Pleasantly, I got some encouragement (both in person and in private). Thanks!
I’m not out of the woods… yet. Life, once it gets out of hand, can be restored (if you’re lucky) but only on its schedule. Rome was neither built nor destroyed in a day… so too with individuals. “In due time” is the only calendar I’ve read lately. I’m pretty darned grateful that it’s “in due time”. It could have been “never”.
How awesome is that? I’m as likely to be around in the near future as ever… which is not something I take for granted.
I’ll need a bit longer before I (and therefore my little blog) am back on my feet. It might be another month, maybe more, maybe less.
Don’t fret. Shit’s looking good. I have optimism.
What happened specifically? At least for now, I ain’t sayin’ nuthin’ about anything.
Which is probably the weirdest way any blogger has ever said “hang tight, I’ll be back”.
Thanks for listening.
A.C.
This could have been titled A Brief Pause Part II. I look forward to reading more interesting postings.
Thanks for checking in. I get it, you need some space. We will just keep checking back. If you’re up to posting we will know at that point. Take all the time you need to make it work. F. Hubert
Glad you are still with us.
Lost Z man, Derb retired.
Sometimes, it is the Devil giving us a burden. May God bless and keep you.
I check daily. You take what ever time you need and post whenever you want to. Be safe and take care of things as you should. Bob Sprowl
We wait to hear from you because we care. We care because we are human. Just keep on keeping on and work through it. We will wait.
Carry on my wayward son, you’ll have peace when you are done.
Seriously I’ll keep you in prayers buddy.
Okay, now I am seriously curious. We will all standby. Meanwhile, take good care of yourself!
We will be here waiting! Will B.
Glad to see you are still with us.
Do what ya gotta do.
We’ll be here when you come back.
Best of luck.
The going is getting really weird, almost time to go pro.
Everyone I have spoken to lately feels it and most think they know why.
Miss your pearls ….
Take care, we’re rooting for you!
This blog is an inspiration. I wish I knew the man behind it in real life, as I think we’d be friends. Keep on living your dreams with your eyes wide open.
KA
I’m sure we would. My anonymity* probably costs me a lot of cool IRL friends.
*I call it anonymity but I also assume that the NSA (or someone) knows everything that anyone does online; including that I have a blog, what I had for breakfast, and when I last took a shit.
Dude, way good to hear from you … THANK YOU. Yes, you do mean so much to so many. Praying for you and yours. CAVU, bro
We’ll wait. Don’t hurry on our account. We’re rootin’ for ya.