We are all mortal.
I am healthy. A loved one is not. The clock ticks loudly. I hear the universe in my ear. I see it in my heart. The power of eternity leans uncomfortably close; crowding me, letting me know what’s coming. It’s gradual but final. I’m thankful it’s not all happening at once.
It would be false to say I’ve been preoccupied and thus unable to blog. Such would imply that pounding out fifty or a hundred essays a year (and my beloved squirrel stories) is the purpose of life, which clearly it is not. I am not preoccupied. I grapple with the very meat of living.
Blogging must wait. How long? I’ve no idea. I’d like to stoically shrug things off but I am human and have human frailty. I’ll need longer. A week? A fortnight? I do not know. I don’t resent the uncertainty. The mystery of life is as beautiful as it is cruel. A new world was created the moment we drew first breath. That world lives in time borrowed but never possessed. It must be returned to the owner. Such knowledge is a heavy weight but we all carry it. I withdraw for now because I can bear no other condition. Withdrawal is no more permanent than anything else.
I have paused from time to time in the last few weeks to ponder what to say. What bit wisdom could I distill? How could I communicate what I experience? Should I broadcast lived wisdom to the aether?
It came clear as I sat by a hospital bed. I cannot share my thoughts. Or rather I will not. At least not yet. We all know the losses that lurk in our future. We all have times of sorrow. Yet, for each agonizing repetition, the process must happen internally.
Despite our current false world of TikTok drivel and navel gazing social media, I am certain I’ve made the right choice. There are times to gather in herds and times to quietly ponder. I write little and none specific. That is my choice.
I want you to know I am alive. I humbly ask for patience. Soon perhaps, though I don’t know when, I’ll write again. I’m not out of stories. In due time I’ll return to conversations with trees and conjured satirical squirrels that scamper about fictional worlds.
If you must wait, at least know it is for good reason.
If I could ask one additional thing, it is this: Step away from politics and hug those who need it. Do it now. Thank you.
A good decision, and sound advice.
Share your sorrow only with those you trust and love and can handle it, and your joy with the world.
Do not take this wrong – I hope for a speedy conclusion, so that you can move on, after a suitable period.
I know that I will soon face the same kind of situation, from one end of it or the other, but I try not to live in anticipation.
Kurt
My prayers are with you and yours.
I pray for God’s comfort for your loved one and you. May the peace that passes all understanding be with you both.
My prayers and positive thoughts for you in this difficult time.
Remember you never walk alone in life. God never leaves you, but He is a gentleman. Sometimes you have to reach out and just chat with Him.
Peace my friend.
We’ll keep the coffee hot and the beer cold for you as long as you need. Take care of you and yours. We’ll look forward to catching up when you can.
Wishing for the best for you and yours.
May The Lord bless and keep you and yours.
Being there for a loved one in their time of need is one of the greatest gifts we can give. When my wife has been in the ICU, intubated and drugged unconscious she knew I was there. Her stats improved with me just being in the room. She is back home for now but her race is almost done which I force myself not think about. Being there matters…………my prayers for you and your loved one.
I don’t know the details, but I am thinking good thoughts your way and praying for you and the loved one in need. I wish you strength that you can weather this and be strong for the one who needs your support.
Deal with the here and now. We will be here when you wish to post again. Family and friends in meatspace are more important then those on the internet.
Good luck in your struggle.
We’ll still be here whenever you conclude this event in your life. You are doing the right thing. May you and your loved one be comforted and strengthened in this time of difficulty.
Take care of your loved ones and yourself. That is what really matters.
My hopes and prayers for your person’s health to take a turn for the better. And for you to find some peace and clarity. These events teach us that distractions aren’t as important as the people in your Life.
I’m very sorry to hear this and even sadder that it seems to happen with increasing frequency as we get older.
I’ve said a prayer for you and whomever it is in your life that has been stricken.
Take your time coming back to this, we aren’t going to abandon you for crying out loud.
Time marches on, and nothing lasts forever. I’m in agreement with hugging your loved ones while you still can. Don’t neglect that.
I wish you and your loved ones the best outcome possible.
Stand fast.
Take care of yourself and those you care about. That’s way more important than words on a screen. Hope everything works out for the best.